I went to the gym today (blog on that to follow).  I burned a ton of calories.

I went to Trader Joe's and bought a lots of healthy food: hummus, peppers, goat cheese, lettuce

and this

and this
and this


Then I came home and prepped my food (blog on that to follow).  Did I eat my beautiful and healthy prepped food?  Nope, I ate the crap and way more than I should have of it.

Story of my life.

Super healthy.  Sabotage.  Super healthy.  Sabotage.  There's no middle ground with me.


Let's hear your brilliant advice because most of my friends act like men (myself included) have want to go right to the solutions.   ;)

"Don't buy that stuff."
"Maybe just but ONE of those things."

I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWW.  I annoy myself and you as well I'm sure.

I'm not Crossfitting right now.
I haven't walked into 480, since I walked out in early October.



My most recent ankle injury wasn't completely healed and, as usual, I didn't really listen, tried to do more than I should have and re-injured myself.

So...I went home.
I went home to heal.
To have a giant pity party.
To be sad about my dumb ligaments and tendons.

I went to physical therapy.
I got an MRI.
I was told I need surgery.
I'm still trying to get a 2nd opinion that tells me I don't.

And in the meantime...
I sit.
I told myself maybe my Crossfit ship had sailed.
Maybe I should find a new "thing."

I tried hot yoga.
I rode my bike a bit.
I walked a little.
But I just haven't felt IT.

The IT I feel when I look at the board and don't wanna do the workout...and then do it anyway.
The IT I feel when I walk in and leave everything I have on the gym floor.
The IT I feel when I PR something almost each time I'm in there.
The IT I feel when I get to add to my Crossfit Log on my phone
The IT I feel when I am more motivated to exercise than I've ever been in my life.
The IT I feel when I'm driving home, recapping the WOD and smiling to myself because I did it...again.
The IT I feel when I'm cheering people on...the same people who have cheered me on over and over again.
The IT I feel when I read other people's Facebook posts about Jackie and know exactly what they mean.The IT I feel when I'm laying on the ground, catching my breath, completely spent.




Yeah, I miss IT.

So, I'm starting to think...even modified Crossfit is probably better than no Crossfit.
Perhaps, I'll go ahead and walk back into that box.

Warning:
I'm in a bad mood.  Do not read this blog if:
A.  You're trying to be inspired to get to the gym.
B.  You're trying to be inspired to eat great food.
C.  You're trying to be inspired*.

*I just misspelled inspired 3 times in a row.  Awesome. 

But, read this blog if:
A.  You're in a bad mood too.  Misery loves company.
B.  You can relate.
C.  You have some kind and positive words for me.

Ok, if you're still here...onward.

You know what I hate?  I hate sucking.  I HATE sucking*.  (I am yelling and pushing really hard on the keys when they're in all caps).
*I'm trying so hard to find a google image of something that depicts "I hate sucking." but...nothing appropriate is coming up.  Get your mind out of the gutter Google!

I don't HAVE to be the best at everything but I hate sucking.

Let me walk you through a little story I like to call.  W-T-F?

I go to Crossfit today and meet a new girl.  She just started.  I was excited for 2 reasons:
1.  I like new peeps and she looked nice.
2.  She was new so I knew I'd beat her.

Turns out, she just had a baby 6 weeks ago (and had a great body, b-t-dub (<----that's by the way).  Perfect, I'll DEFINITELY beat you.  


In September I will have been Crossfitting for a year.  That's a long time to stick to a workout routine.
Our WOD...you know it was a bad/super hard day when I totally remember the WOD when I get home.

18 minutes AMRAP (As many rounds as possible)
10 Wall Balls
15 Burpees...100 Day Burpee Challengers, I DEF got my burpees in today :)
10 Pull-ups
200 Meter Run

We pick up our Wall Balls...3...2...1...Go!
I'll just give you the short version of me working out today.  At 1 point our owner was standing near me clapping some sort of rhythm and I feel like he was saying this in his head, "Get. Your. Ass. Moving. Katie. They're. Just. Burpees.  This. Is. Ridiculous."  I sucked and then sucked some more and then sucked some more and Just Had a Baby Girl BEAT me!  W-T-F?!?!?!

I'm so damn annoyed right now, I cried on the way home and I want to quit*. We always get new people and they're always better than me.  I feel like I suck just as bad as when I started.  I need to go back to doing something I'm good at...sitting on my couch.
*I'm not actually going to quit because I already drank the Kool-Aid but I am mad.  

And...as if that wasn't bad enough, I have been to Sumits (Hot Yoga) 3 times and guess what...I suck there too!  A blog for another day but the instructor actually came up to me in the middle of class with a very empathetic look in her eyes and said with a head tilt, "Are you new?"

And...I've been doing at LEAST 1 workout a day all week and I've been eating great and I GAINED 2 lbs.

Recap:
1.  Sucking sucks
2.  I'm in an asstastic (asstastic, 1 word) mood


And there you have it.  Thank you for reading this inspiring, uplifting, empowering, crabby rant.

I'm going to see Magic Mike...because I'm almost as good at sitting in big chairs while drinking and watching sexay men as I am at sitting on my couch.


Tune in next time for a much happier blog :)

I found this...and I will try and focus on this...

Today, I write, again, because:
A.  I'm still on Spring Break and thought I'd put out as many posts as possible while I still have time.
B.  My body is too sore to move anything other than my fingers.
C.  I don't get the morning paper so with my coffee, I blog.

Nancy Negative Side:
I'm in an asstastic mood.  LPIYH (Little people in YOUR heads):  Oh joy, so glad you decided to share this bad mood with both of us.

The only reason I'm sharing this is because, perhaps, a few of you can relate.  Maybe there is a teeny, tiny chance that some of you are here because you, too, feel asstastic about this same thing.

So there I was...

• My clothes are fitting awesome.  
• Lots of my pictures are looking good.
• People are making comments that I look better. 
• My last workout was rad.

I was feeling good.  I was feeling pretty.  I was doing my morning walk around the internet and suddenly this picture kicked me in the face.
Sidenote:  There has NEVER been a good picture of me that has come out of the Crossfit 480 owner's camera.  That damn thing hates me. 

• I don't look exactly like I want to look but I'm getting there.  
• I'm closer than I was 6 months ago.
• I did 190 Wall Balls yesterday...and a shit-ton of other stuff
• No matter how long I do Crossfit, it's ALWAYS hard (as in lay on the floor and try not to die hard) and I NEVER quit.

• My clothes are fitting awesome.  
• Lots of my pictures are looking good.
• People are making comments that I look better. 
• My last workout was rad.
• I have tons of super great things going on in my life right now.  
• I pulled out my entire summer wardrobe, a wardrobe that didn't fit last summer, and it ALL FITS!